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Perpetual Sadness

Dari Rabu atau Kamis denger pertama kabar Nanggala, hatiku remuk. Secara logika udah kuat banget dugaan mereka ga akan selamat. Kesedihan mulai merayapiku.

Mulai kerasa sedih ga jelas
Ga mood ngapa-ngapain
Rasa kehilangan akan entah apa
Kebayang kamu ga ada
Hatiku lebih remuk lagi
Kalo sampe itu terjadi

Mulai muter lagu2 sedih
Lagu Linkin Park paling kena sih
Mungkin karena Chester nya
Mungkin karena walau sedih tetap terasa kuat
Menambah rasa ironi

Sabtu malam dinyatakan tenggelam
Ucapan duka bertebaran
Rasa sedih menyeruak
Minggu lebih banyak berita detail
Ditemukan terbelah tiga
Memuncak sedih ini
Rasa kehilangan yang besar dan dalam

Berusaha menghibur diri
Namun dengan rasa bersalah
Karena sepertinya dunia malah baru mulai berduka
Tapi aku sudah hampir tenggelam
Dalam kesedihan

Mulai nonton dan baca berita berita analitis terkait, berusaha merasionalisasi kenyataan

Tak terhindarkan
Di luar kendali siapapun
Lepaskan
Ayo lanjutkan hidup

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