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Why people deeply want money

So we can buy stuffs to distract us from our miseries or somehow hope that will fill the void. So we can afford tickets to far away destinations, running away from a place we never call home.
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Big Trees

I love big trees
So magnificent
More ever with blue sky as the background
I wonder should I make it a hobbyYou know..
Hunting big trees
Finding their names
The story behind themThey give me the sense of strength
Of surviving one day at a time
Of waiting the sun for its warmth

Would have

If there's such thing as a different universe
I would've flown to where you are
I would've showered you with hugs
Would've rub your back, pat your shoulder, and comb your hair with my fingers

Sort of Mid Life Crisis

Let's call it a premature mid life crisis
A time in my thirties
When everything goes everywhere
Or in another term
Goes nowhereA time when things are pretty much "it"
All the excitement has wore down
Nothing big to anticipateMaybe it's too much to say
Everything's downhill from here
But it's probably trueNot that I'm not grateful
I'm just being realistic
Maybe I had too many adrenaline in the past
So life's now seems so dullHappiness and fun comes in very different sizes, boxes and colors
Maybe I'm just not ready yet
To get tiny pale yellow boxes every other day
When deep inside I'm still waiting for that big shiny rainbow boxLife can never be as fun and thrilling as it was beforeOr can it?

Goodbye Akak

I was always bad at goodbyes.This is Akak, a black and grey male cat roaming around our house these past few months. We fed him almost everyday, out of compassion, but never really consider him as a pet.After considering a handful issues (mostly whether he'll be accepted by Luki and Kuma), we decided to seriously adopt him last week and bringing him to the vet to be spayed.But God has other story written. Last Thursday, just one week after the conscious decision, since morning he threw up several times and refuse to eat and drink. I was shocked and shivered, reminded of what happened to Lian, my cat who died because of cat flu a decade ago.We brought him the vet and got him hospitalized for the night. The next morning, the blood test result came out, he's positive of panleukopenia or cat flu. This virus is so evil, it is known to took away lives in just days. I cried that afternoon, regretting not vaccinate him earlier. The vet kept updating us for his condition, and this morn…

Before The Last Day

Tomorrow's my last day of being an office worker.What do I feel right now?Relief. Of not having a big system above me.
Rushed. Of moving out files and stuffs
Longing. Starting to notice what I'll be missing.
Poised. As if time stand still in this place.
Anxious. Of the challenges ahead.I'm still breathing.
I'm alive.