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5 Nov

This morning I dreamed
I was in some hospital/school complex
I just received a rather bad news
Something is not well with me
The test gave bad results on my right breast

As I wait for the doctor's appointment
I confusedly didn't return the test clothing or something
So I had to run to the other side of the complex
 
As I walked with my head full of questions
From afar I saw you on the stairs
It looked like the field stairs of my junior high
You were there with a friend
I tried to pretend I didn't see you
But as we locked eyes, you greet me first
You and your beautiful hair
No glasses, did I remember that right?

You asked where I was going
And I said I'm getting an operation
You were shocked and confused too
You then try to walk beside me

I can't remember if we talked along the way
I know I'm just so confused and yet so focused
On returning that test outfit and whatsoever administrative work I have to finish
Maybe you understand that already
So you stayed, you stand next to me amidst it all

Then I woke up. I felt sad yet grateful you're there

In real life, this morning
You posted a picture you took last week with a caption
"Help me to remember how to breathe and believe again"

Wait
Wasn't it supposed to me my line?
I'm supposed to be one who ask that in my dream
Why are we such a wound mate?

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