pain from my dear fingers

16 Sept, 5 hari sebelum berumur 37

Ujung2 jariku terasa sakit

Bengkak, merah, berdenyut

Sakit sekali kayak kesetrum tiap dipakai

Practically paralysed

Pegang buku, buka kancing, ngambil piring, every little thing feels painful

I should be grateful

My body is giving me early warnings

Dan ga membiarkanku lumpuh dlm kondisi lebih parah di umur lebih lanjut

I knew I wasn't living as healthy as I should be

But I never thought the consequences will come in this time and with this shape

I always imagine I'd die of stroke, severe yet fast

But not this

The agony of pain from such simple parts of my body

My body overall alhamdulillah is functioning well

But what does that mean if you have constant distracting pain from just doing mundane stuffs

Astaghfirullah...

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