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On Okay

Growing up with someone with low-key worries (if not anxiety) is unhealthy on many levels. Always being asked if everything is okay, days filled with questions and needs of reassurances. 
At one point it mold us too, into one which questions. Is everything okay? Are you/we/they okay? Is he/she okay? Am I okay? Up to: what is okay, anyway? 
No wonder then, that doubts become life companion. 
Everything seems normal until one point you realized your doubts bring you nowhere. You're stuck. Yet you're not ready and sure enough to move forward.

So here I am, starting on square one. Acknowledging my self, my doubts, my okayness. It's not easy when  I'm stuck in my own little head. 
So I look around and see. The day has rise, the birds are chirping, my cats are playing around early in the morning. My loved ones are okay, breathing, healthy, at ease. 

Everything is okay. I'm okay.
Alhamdulillah.
Let's move on.

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