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Sebelum Aku Pergi

Sebelum aku pergi
Akan kuhirup dalam-dalam aroma senja di tepi Sansiro
Kupandang lekat setiap pucuk daun dan kuntum bunga
Kupejamkan mata sambil perlahan mengenang
Setiap masa yang telah terlewati di atas tanah sunyi ini

Sebelum aku pergi
Akan kurekam dalam-dalam pemandangan dari kaca jendelaku
Setiap emosi, tawa canda ceria kalian
Gundah gulana gelisah kalian
Yang datang dan pergi secepat wajah baru
Yang hadir setiap awal tahun ajaran

Sebelum aku pergi
Akan kekemasi setiap lembar tak beraturan
Kurapikan buku bacaan yang tak sempat kutamatkan
Kutata ulang berkas dan laporan saksi mata bisu
Kucermati setiap goresan yang tersisa
Adakah kiranya yang berhak kubawa

Sebelum aku pergi
Akan kuucap lirih rasa sesal dan syukur
Atas semua yang kualami dan kuhikmahi
Kudekap erat setiap ide, nilai, rasa dan cinta
Lalu kusimpan dalam lubuk hati terdalam

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