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Withdrawal

Sakaw

That's what I'm going through now

I've been in low, oh how I've been in low alright
Then you give me high
So high I can reach the sky
Now suddenly finding the truth
I have to cut off myself from you
I'm in withdrawal

I've been high so long
Too long
I can't tell what's real
I'm used to having you as my energy
I've associated you with life and hope
Reason to hang on for the past 19 months

And now that I have to let go
Everything looked surreal
Like in a fogged film

Too real

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