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Distant

Sitting so close yet so far apart
Your eyes looking far ahead while you drive
Is this what distance feel like

Words inside my head
Whirling about in my heart
What are you thinking?
Why can't I read you

Is this a game of guilt?
If so, then I deserved it

But please don't
Leave me in silence

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