Ramble Me This

Loving you is as simple as one two three      You are so easy to be loved       Lovable in so many ways Loving you is like loving myself       Not only that it feels like loving myself, but Loving you helps me keep loving myself       From one bad day to another Loving you helps me love others       When my temper can't stand them around Loving you is loving me

It seemed like for years my life was on a race And I was always on my 3rd or 4th gear Then suddenly I crashed And ever since Not even to put on the high speed I can barely walk fast Do I even need to run I just wanna walk right now Somewhere somehow

Four years ago, today would be unimaginable. That was when I was at the bottom of my depression It was when nothing matters anymore Everything was meaningless And the reason why I could push myself to work everyday was the hope of seeing a glimpse of you that day Up to a point when I realize my working condition was no longer ideal. And it's not doing good for my depression. I realized that I need to move out, resign, bail out. But I postponed. I kept saying to my close friends that I'll hold on, I'll stay a bit longer, just to see him graduate. Yes, that's you. But it had only got worse. So, I had to leave. Fast forward to this day. Being here for your graduation. Congratulate you, shake your hand, take pictures with you. All the worry and doubt flies away. Riding home I felt nothing but joy and grateful. I genuinely am so happy and proud of you! Thank you for tolerating me all these years You're still a God-sent angel for me Thank you

So we can buy stuffs to distract us from our miseries or somehow hope that will fill the void. So we can afford tickets to far away destinations, running away from a place we never call home.

I love big trees So magnificent More ever with blue sky as the background I wonder should I make it a hobby You know.. Hunting big trees Finding their names The story behind them They give me the sense of strength Of surviving one day at a time Of waiting the sun for its warmth

If there's such thing as a different universe I would've flown to where you are I would've showered you with hugs Would've rub your back, pat your shoulder, and comb your hair with my fingers

In between classes and meet ups, i miss you Along scrolls of timeline, I miss you In seconds Or minutes Here and there Now and then I miss you