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March 29

The sky is clear. Bright blue. Remind me of you. Why do I still miss you?

I wanna bathe in sun's ray of warmth, careless of the UV alert haha 

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Still feeling hollow. Anxious between the thought of future. Salatiga. Setup business. The coaching business. Hubby's plans.

Paralyzed by my own worries.

Reading quotes/posts on change and facing myself, kinda motivated yet still imprisoned.

What/how do I want out of life?

Where do I want to be?
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Plans for the rest of day: bantu nia beres2, belanja Mirota.
For tomorrow's holiday? Bantu nia beres2. Lihat pameran sm Aray.

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